Immediately after I finished my studies, my cousin pulled me into a company and started working there... The timeline is now end of April 2011, where I'm staying in KL again... Me and Alpha still the same, meeting once every week... But this time I have the option to stay over his place, travelling by motorcycle.. The first time I went to Klang it took me 1hour plus just to reach, because I got lost and ended up very frustrated.. Even though I found my way there, Alpha were so sad and worried because I travelled by bike... He decided to give me a car, second hand Savvy just to travel from A to B..
On top of that, I also received a sub platinum credit card with Rm 1k credit limit from him.... No longer using Samsung Galaxy 5, upgraded to Samsung Galaxy S2... Basically, everything is provided by Alpha... Please take note that I'm not bragging, with Alpha around I walked my path much easier compare to others, just a little bit fortunate that's all...
I had to lie to my mom all the time, why suddenly I want to get a car, why I spend so much money on phones, hiding my credit card, going over to friend's place to stay during the weekend and so much more.. Pretend to be extremely busy with my life...
Alpha had no friends, basically his life is all about work->sleep->wake up -> work... We were both working and living routine life... Even after almost a year together, I'm still calling Alpha doctor, which sound more like a formal name than a lover's name.... Weekdays we will be working and meet each other during the weekends, and I work on Saturdays (half day)..
One month later, I met a rich friend (one of the boys) outside who loves to drink alcohol, I got influenced by him and started drinking everyday... I even quit my game and reduced jerrykiat blogging frequency because everyday after work, we would meet up in bars and clubs just to chat and have fun (as in straight clubs and bars)... It was this moment, where I often get myself wasted, bad thoughts started coming into my head...
Why do I have a lover but feels like I don't have a lover?
Why do I feel like I'm having a long distance relationship?
Why do I feel like I have everything but so empty inside?
What's the point of Alpha having so much money but not willing to close his clinic a day or two just to spend some time with me?
Another month have passed, entering the month of June... I can't stand the loneliness anymore, I started initiating my bad thoughts.... That's the time when..........
Next : How I met Beta....
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