Me and Beta broke up on August 13th... But we still contact each other and go for dinner together stuffs like that.. Even though we are not together anymore but the love is still there... The moment after our break up, Beta came to know a guy through Grindr, who is kinda crazy for him... They hang out a couple of times, the guy even gave him flowers as souvenir...
Beta told me he's not into this guy, just treating him as a friend... Well, it didn't bother me much though since I can no longer control his personal life, I only take it at face value... One fine week I invited him to go exercise ( mountain climbing ) on a weekend, it's a mountain near Ketumbar Heights and he told me he never went there before...
I still remember it was Saturday, we met up in the morning and went straight to that place after breakfast... I was pretty excited because it's his first time climbing that mountain... Beta seldom exercise, so he had a hard time climbing up the mountain, it was fun looking at him grasping for air, wiping off his sweat, the look on his face as if he wanna stop going up.. I literally encouraged him all the way "C'mon almost there, we are almost there, don give up!!"
Finally we reached the top, I made fun of him along the way, but I am happy to see him working it out... We rest for about fifteen minutes before going down... Then Beta suggested to find another route down the mountain instead of going back down the same way... I said there's no other way down but he insisted on going another way... I didn't think about it because I every time uses the same way up and down.. Well since he asked for it I just explore another route with him...
True enough, there really is another way down the mountain... I praised him for being so clever... After that we go for lunch, then headed back to Sg Long...
While driving, we were just chit chatting, and suddenly he told me,
Beta - Actually I climbed this mountain before, with that guy, just last week..
Me - (With the stunned reaction, duno how to respond) Wow... Not bad..
Beta - I didn't wanna tell you earlier because I don't want to ruin the mood..
Me - It makes no difference now....
Few days later, I also discovered something in his computer, a folder named "A mountain climbing day"... That folder is filled with their pictures... They looked so happy together, he had to lie to me just because of one random guy from Grindr... We didn't even take a single shot together and the path we took was exactly the same as the path he and that guy took.... It was pathetic being fooled like a dumb ass....
I don't know how to ever forget this incident... I tried to forgive him, but everytime I sees him, there's a wave of hatred coming out from my heart...
The best part of a relationship is exploring something new together... Because the feed back you get is usually priceless... But this time, I was the dummy all along, with him pretending to climb the mountain for the first time... And me being so hype and enthusiastic about it, I felt like I'm a joker creating all the meaningless sceneries...
Even after the incident had passed for 3 weeks, until now, it still hurts so bad..... This incident will carve a permanent scar in my heart...
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