Discovering Roulette Part 1

It was around middle of November, where my sub-contractor hosted a trip to Genting for 2 days 1 night, to have some fun in Casino... There were 4 of us going up, sleeping in one deluxe room... Before that I went to Casino a few times, but I'm just a small time gambler, maximum lose Rm 200-300 I'll walk away....

I still remember it was a Saturday, we reached Genting in the evening, after having dinner we went inside Casino... Both my lovers did not follow me on that trip... So, having quite a bit of money in my savings account, I decided to take out Rm 500 to play.. That time the hot game was Progressive Texas Hol'em, even though minimum bet was Rm 25, I lost about Rm 1000 that night...  Rough day for me.... So I thought "May be I'm not so lucky today, I'll try again tomoro"...

The next day, we went up again... Tried another Rm 500, lost also... I withdrew a last Rm 500 to play, basically I'm dumbfounded already because Rm 1500 was too much for me to bear yet I still couldn't control myself...  I followed my friend because he was winning, and he's playing roulette... The odds were 1:36, meaning you strike Rm 1, you get Rm 36... Mischievously I bet a few round and ended up losing everything... Net loss was Rm 2000, stunned and regretted, since then I told myself not to gamble again.. On the other hand, my interest in roulette grew...

Whenever it comes to money problem, the first one I'll run to is Alpha... Whining over the money I lost and he advised me to stop gambling...  A week later, we went up to Genting again for weekend relax trip... We went into casino to look around despite saying not to gamble anymore, later on I couldn't control myself and begged Alpha to allow me to play Rm 100... I exchanged to 4 Rm 25 chips, bet on 3 numbers... I asked Alpha to give me one special number, he gave me number 18... Luckily we stroked on number 18 and I got Rm 900 instantly... That was the biggest win I had in my life, and we had the happiest time up there, possibly the last trip I had with Alpha....

I was so delighted till I had to share the news with Beta.. He felt my joy but  deep down he was so jealous of Alpha... He knew he couldn't take this underground relationship much longer, for a few weeks I've told him that I will break up with  Alpha, but it seemed like he got impatient and don't want to drag on this relationship any longer...

I couldn't focus on my job, feeling stressed mentality because I love Beta so much yet I don't want to break up with Alpha... I knew this day would come ...



Finally, I made my decision to break up with Alpha on December 13th 2011.....